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Today I humbled myself and went to be tutored by someone who I knew would be younger than me. I hate admitting my deficiencies in economics to people who don't really know it's true. Actually, let me clarify that. I don't mind admitting these deficiencies if it is purely a superficial admittance. If it's just something like "oh, I never get that," but that won't ever actually be tested so people still might think I'm smart. So, anyway, this class that I'm in. I'm in it all alone. Well, not really all alone, but I only know one person in the class. And he has yet to realize that I am, indeed, stupid*. And he's one of those people--like most people that I only sort of know--who actually think I'm one of those really smart, really put-together types. Let me save you all the suspense: I'm not. So, this weekend, not only did he get to witness my stupidity, but I had to go through it all tonight, as well. When we were working on the problem set, I didn't understand how to do one of the problems and it was something ridiculous that I should have understood. When he explained it to me, I told him sorry, but I was really slow. And he responded with "well, we haven't done it in a while and you'll get faster." He's nice.

So, tonight I got over myself and went to be tutored. Knowing good and well that I'd be older than my tutor and get it half as much. Turns out she was, and turns out I did. But, I actually had the problems more or less correct--or at least was on the right track. Which was good. But, anyway, so there was another guy in the cubicle with us and they are both in 203 right now. They asked if I wrote the paper or took the test (we had options). I told them that I wrote the paper and that it was the only "A" midterm I've had here. The guy commented on my honesty and said that not many people at our school would admit to that. I wasn't sure what he thought I was admitting. My stupidity? Cause I admit it all the time. It's just that no one believes me. And, I'm not sure that I'd want them to, anyway.

*when it comes to economics--that's what my mom assured me on the phone this evening