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I am a keep-aholic. I'm organized in my keeping, though. I may have a lot, but I know where most of it is. I don't like throwing anything away. Just in case. Just in case. The thing is, I often actually need things that I could have thrown away but didn't. So that just reinforces the fact that keeping is good. Throwing is bad.

Emails. Oh, emails.

Another thing I'm bad at getting rid of. I'm too sentimental and nostalgic on one hand--I have cute emails that different (different) people have sent me over the years. Also, though, I keep lots of administrative stuff. I delete it out of my inbox, but it's all still there. Just the other day, though, I actually referred back to something I'd deleted way back when. So, you see? That's why I keep it.

Anyway, I got an email saying that I was way over quota--I don't know, like 230 units of whatever that unit is. Yikes! So, I went to check my folders to see what was taking up too much space. I deleted about 40 emails from my inbox (my inbox is actually rather organized, I must admit) and a few from some other random folders. Checked back. Somehow I'd taken up even more space in the process! Yikes. So, I took a better look at the storage space and, much to my chagrin, turns out the trash was taking up just about everything. Sad, sad, sad. I knew what had to be done all along, I just refused to believe it.

I had to make a quick move before I thought about it too much. Oh my god! What if I needed a brownie recipe that Dari had sent me 2 years ago?? Oh my god! What if I wanted to remember an email back from Summer Diaries 04? What ever would I do? Quick. It had to be quick.

I ran my cursor over the trash icon. Circled it a few times. Pushed down on the mouse. But I couldn't let go. I really just couldn't let go. The thing is, I knew I had to. So, well, I did. Pride. The trash-less page was taking a long time to load and I got to thinking about that brownie recipe and how actually I would like to read back from 2004. Think fast! I pushed stop. Nothing. Again. Nothing. So, I closed the page. Surely that would do it. I logged back in just to be sure....and....what popped up?

A svelte under-quota, trashless browser. It was sad. But, I think this is a good time to be cleaning out things. It's all symbolic. Yeah. That's it. I like symbols.

Anyway.

To moving on. To letting go. To purging my trash.